Happy Birthday to me! 100 bucks says I have a glass of wine in my hand and I’m eating cheese.
Adult life, eh?
I’m 28 years old today and you know what? For the first time in my life, I feel old. I know, I’m not. I’m not even 30. I’ve barely hit a milestone. But I still feel really freakin’ old.
Sorry if you’re older and I’ve just reminded you of that. You totally look great for your age.
Anyway back to me. It’s funny, I have such distinct memories of sitting down, contemplating what I’d be like now. And let me tell you one thing. Everything I imagined? Absolutely none of that has happened.
I thought I’d have it all figured out by now – travel, family, money, job, education, friends. I think I thought I’d be totally in control of my life.
Oh my younger self, if only you had known. YOU SUCKER, haha.
In 28 years I feel like I’ve done less than some, others say I’ve done more. Ugh don’t you just hate that feeling of under accomplishment?
I think at the end of the day no matter what we do, as people we are never truly satisfied. We’re always striving, always planning, forever dreaming and the fact of the matter is, life is hard. In the words of my wise old man “suck it up, girl”
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had plenty of good times and achievements but hell, no one prepares you for what could happen. Hell, what does happen. And how you have so so many dreams. So many.
Note to self: less dreaming, more doing.
Oh another thing, the older you get, the faster time passes. You know what the worst part is? I make excuses like I am too busy, it’s always about how I don’t have enough time. But the fact of the matter is, that’s life and you have to make time. I hope I remember that next year. I really do.
I’m not going to lie, do you know how many times this year I’ve asked myself, am I going through a quarter life crisis?
Anyway, Happy Birthday you 28 year old, slightly lost, sarcastic, over organised, totally stressed out girl. Just remember no matter how crap ya day is, you still get asked for ID when buying Pinot Gris. The day that stops is the day you start to worry…..
May next year be full of fulfilled dreams and positive changes.
P.S. I hope you have three dogs and new carpet – I know how much you wanted that this year.